Well, I didn’t make it to 30 days of blogging. So I guess that’s failure…
BUT, I did make it 23 days. That’s pretty dang good! I shot high and while I didn’t get where I wanted, I got farther than I ever have and I rekindled my love for blogging and writing. That, to me, was a win!
Since moving, I’ve really tried to set some goals for myself to help me kind of take back my life. Not that I lost it, but having a kid, quitting my job and moving was a lot of changes and I want to take back time for me.
I’ve made progress on all of my goals – however, I haven’t yet reached the optimal level of achieving and making continual progress. I know this will take time! So I’m definitely not beating myself up… it’s just hard to focus on all of them at the same time.
For a while, my gym time and blogging were happening daily, It was awesome!
Now, I’m doing really great at food prep, cleaning, laundry and all things home – that’s awesome! It feels good to be helping my family in such a tangible way – truly! It brings me a lot of joy and fulfillment. I’ve been able to make my husband’s signature chili – I’ve made the last 5 batches for him! This means more time for him to enjoy time with us instead of being in the kitchen. (WIN!)
I’ve also been reaching out and trying to make new friends. I planned a few events on a local moms facebook page – I got to meet 7 moms. One of them is pretty cool – we have another playdate/hangout this Friday. It was a good vibe and she lives close, so it’d be sooo great if we became good friends!
I’m ready to keep moving forward though and bring blogging, crafting and working out back in to the weekly routine. Blogging and crafting are really important for me to reflect and relax. I love working with my hands and creating something – so stay tuned for that. If all goes well, I’ll definitely be sharing this new craft I’m tackling. BUT, no promises.
Another big win has been podcasts! I FINALLY took the plunge and started listening to one. It’s called The Ultimate Health Podcast, and I’m really loving it. They tackle tons of health topics and bring on experts to discuss their books, things they’ve learned and ways to improve your life and health. It’s uplifting, enlightening and encourages me to seek more information and think deeply about my health and life. I LOVE that! If you’re looking for something like that, you should definitely check it out! I will definitely post more about what I’m learning in another post soonish. 🙂
So, did I fail my challenge? Yep. Am I still a winner? Hell yeah! Just by taking it on and truly working towards it makes me a fighter and a competitor. I’m proud of that.
The truth is, I struggle as a new mom often. I struggle with myself, my husband, my son, my chores, my goals and sometimes I just plain struggle with all of it at the same time. Some days are hard and some days are THE BEST. I often feel like I should be doing more, handling it better. Other days, I feel so good about the progress I make.
We have a friend, who is also a stay at home mom, and her instagram is amazing. She posts gorgeous photos, promotes products, draws, runs her own business and manages to just seem like her life is bliss. I know that I’m not seeing the whole picture, but it sure can make me feel so inferior. I hate that! I want to be happy for her and use her success as an encouraging thing. I was telling my husband about, “I have mom jealousy honey.” He laughed and listened and validated and ended by lifting me up with positive words. (Gosh, he’s great!) It was really sweet though and it helped me to change my mindset. He said, “Babe, if you really stuck to something and gave it your all, you could be doing exactly what she’s doing.” He continued by affirming that we’ve made some parenting choices that can be limiting and hard, but that we believe in them and he is so ready to support me chasing those goals and dreams in any way he can. (Did I mention how in love with this dude I am?)
He’s right though. When I decide to do things and I really go after it, I make things happen. Right now, I still don’t know what that THING is, but I know I’ll find it and when I do, it’s going to happen for me.
One more thing, before I sign off… I was listening to new podcast. They were talking to a yoga teacher, who’s also from Kansas, and she was talking about social media and our society’s obsession with likes and reactions. She totally gets that as a business you have to have not only an online presence, but more importantly a social media presence. But she hates it. She hates that she sits and thinks about what she should post, what will get the biggest response. So she’s stopped doing that and only posting what she’s proud of and truly into.
I want to be like that! I want to blog about what feels real – not what I think others want to hear or what will get people to read my stuff and react. I’m looking to embrace that and be me. Me is enough.